Fighting Fatigue

I feel like I've been living in a bit of a fog these last few weeks. Two weeks ago tonight I started my Reiki III training, an experience that is clearly kicking my ass.  Each level there is a cleanse, as your body attunes to the new energies. Level I is a physical cleanse, II an emotional cleanse and III a spiritual cleanse.  During my first week, in addition to the cleanse (which lasts 3 weeks), I also contracted the oh so popular flu bug. Luckily, my dandy flu tips helped me ward that sucker off, but I've still been majorly fatigued for the past few weeks, which I'm attributing to the Reiki cleanse. I've been sleeping quite a lot, in fact last week I slept right through Tuesday, missed it completely, quite a bizarre experience. I've watched over 40 hours of Buffy and really done little else. It's bizarre, I have absolutely no motivation, strength, energy, etc. and I have to ask, "how is this spiritual?"

I realized last night that I've allowed myself to "rest", to just do nothing, to lose myself in Buffy, and maybe that's the problem. This morning I made myself do my energy routine and bounce on my rebounder, and what do you know, I have a teeny bit of energy, enough to put this blog entry together. It also occured to me last night that maybe my body is encouraging me to take a physical break, and maybe a mental break, but not necessarily an emotional or spiritual break. Meaning, how much physical energy does it take to meditate, pray, read poetry, contemplate, do some spiritual reading?

In the past, when the going got tough, I always turned to Buffy. The lessons, the friendships, and comfort I experience while watching that show is like no other. But maybe that's the problem. Maybe I should be turning to myself, my inner guidance or ~ing, developing my own lessons, building my own friendships and finding comfort in my spirit guides and the Universe.

I know it's not a physical ailment that I'm experiencing, even though I have physical symptoms. I know what's it feels like for your body to start shutting down, what tumors feels like when they are growing, spreading, when your organs stop working and the process of dying begins. This is not the same. There is no pain, just intense fatigue, which probably will improve as I continue to push myself just a bit, do some spiritual work, and detox, detox, detox!

Watching TV, sleeping, numbing life away seems like the easy path, but really, what fun is that? Sure, we all need our chill days, but there is more to this life than being an observer, I want to be a participant. So yes, I still have a week of cleansing, and likely will continue to experience unbearable fatigue, but this is the time to break out that enema kit, do some yoga, and get started reading "A Course In Miracles."

And of course, learn psychic surgery in my Reiki class tonight....

Love and Gratitude Friday's: Happy Halloween!

I've been a bit quiet this week, in fact today is the first day I've been online since Sunday. I've had the flu on and off, been sleeping alot (I literally slept through Tuesday, not kidding) and possibly feeling a little funky from my Reiki III attunement. However, I am seeing a turn for the better, and wanted to acknowledge the fun-tastic holiday of Halloween.

"I was just thinking of the life of a pumpkin, grow up in the sun, happily entwined with others, then someone comes along, cuts your open and rips your guts out." Buffy from 'Fear Itself'

"Ok, on sleezing extra candy, tears are key. Tears will normally get you the double bagger. You can also try the 'you missed me' routine, but it's risky. Only go there for chocolate." Xander from 'Halloween'

My favorite part of Halloween? The Scare-Tastic Halloween movies on all week. Who doesn't love "Teen Witch", "Casper" or "The Craft?  Be sure to enjoy some tasty Vegan Halloween Treats to enhance your movie watching pleasure.

Carving pumpkins this year, be sure to check out Dog O'Lanterns. This lense is heating up the web and has some great doggie pumpkin carvings. There is also a pic of the Triton pumpkin my ex-Ryan carved a few years ago, definately worth checking out!

Need a last minute party idea? Why not throw a Buffy the Vampire Slayer Halloween party?

Ashley, Megan and I, Halloween, 4th grade maybe?

Ashley and I, Halloween, 2nd grade?





HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

Love and Gratitude,

Shanna ♥

Love and Gratitude Friday's: YOU!!

I am grateful for all the wonderful people who have supported my blog project, my followers, commenter's, my Mom, the lovely and wonderful Laura L who is currently working on upgrading my design and everyone who has approached me with their positive thoughts

 Also a good read? Shanna's latest blog post. Our friend is an excellent inspirational writer! Who knew? ;)
 In that note, I would like to share that Shanna, I am so proud and happy that a little over 5 years ago, you chose LIFE over what most would consider a death certainty. You have really re-imagined yourself and are a true inspiration. Keep up the amazing work. You have chosen to use your cancer as a gift, to realise how precious life is and to share your knowledge with others. I love you!!!



I am also grateful to Shirley Twofeathers for creating such a wonderful Reiki experience, and hosting monthly workshops. She's truly an inspiration.  I am grateful for Linda Bradbury being such a gracious host for the classes, and all her wonderful insight.

I am grateful to Gala Darling, for her wonderfully inspiring posts each day, and the gorgeously written Love and Sequins, which I'm just delving into. Such a lovely blogger!

Things I Love

funky tights ♥ doggie snoring ♥ tooth soap ♥ new lipstick ♥ Cold War Kids ♥ dreaming Twitter ♥ flirting ♥ new book Glimmerglass gorgeous coverart ♥ lilies ♥ Her Future ♥ clean floors ♥ discovering new blogs ♥ How I Met Your Mother ♥ jumping on acorns and hearing that crunch ♥ namaste yoga ♥ creating love lists ♥ new experiences ♥ walking to work ♥ fall sweaters ♥ peep toe heels ♥ La Roux CD ♥ watching Buffy Halloween episodes ♥ pumpkin carving ♥ chai tea ♥ Indian leftovers ♥ creating my Vision Book ♥ secretly blessing strangers ♥ The Daily Love ♥ Mary Magdelene ♥mascara ♥Eden's Alley ♥ rose petals ♥ basking in the sunshine ♥

Love and Gratitude,

 Shanna ♥