Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Have You Seen My Motivation?

This last week I've  been extremely unmotivated and lazy. It's not just fatigue, it's just an innate boredom and lack of desire to do anything. I think it has to do with the detox, it makes one's brain a bit fuzzy at times. Yes, still detoxing, and really, forever detoxing I'm afraid, yet glad. Ever since starting the coffee enemas I've been doing some crazy detox. And not just the obvious kind, but apparently my lymph system is opening up, and I've been coughing up mucus like crazy. I also am expecting any day now to start coughing up pieces of flesh. Yes, gross I know, but the tumors have to get out somehow and either they push themselves out like pimples (yikes!), come out through eliminations, or you can literally cough pieces up. Hopefully, I'm  eliminating some of them, but I have been coughing a lot and I do know people with tumors in similar locations have actually coughed up chunks of tumor. Freaking me out a bit, but I've been assured they will come out in manageable chunks and not choke me to death or anything.

All that aside, some of my motivation issues have been simply ridiculous. I managed  to get my sheets into the basement Saturday evening to wash them, but could not find the motivation to bring them back up and put them on my bed. So, I've been sleeping in the spare bedroom, yes, for the last three nights, and possibly tonight. My Dad has agreed to put the sheets on, but his availability is up in the air right now. I just can't get motivated to do it. It took me three days to force myself to get to the grocery store, and I almost left without spinach, the most important item on my list. I'm still not sure what all I bought, but it seems to be working so far.

Fortunately today I seem to be doing a bit better. I had some queasiness this morning, but after some serious releasing, it seemed to be better. I was able to make a delicious green smoothie, finish my book, do a detox bath, and SHAVE MY LEGS!!! Yes, this is extremely exciting news. I haven't shaved in months, maybe since May, because I haven't been able to bend over like that or sit and get out of a tub. So I've been living with hairy mountain man legs, and I have to say it gets tiring after awhile. It took some effort, but I now I wonderfully smooth legs. Feels good.

And now I am heading off to my colonics appointment for more releasing. Hopefully tomorrow I will be super motivated, although I'm not sure to do what, but I'll figure that out tomorrow.


  1. Oh man! Shanna, I had no idea you were going through all that... :( sometimes I have a hard enough time getting my motivation on too. We all have our moments. Stay strong! xx

  2. I hear you loud and clear! I have weeks/days like this too....don't beat yourself up at all about it though, you need it for some reason or another, just relax and trust that it won't last forever.
    I hope you are feeling better and coughing those tumors up at least lets you know that they aren't in your body any more. :)
    Much love to you

  3. Oh the things we take for granted...shaving our legs. It may be something I hate to do, but it sure feels good once it's done.

  4. This too will pass my dear... <3


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